Why is this account still getting followers? (NOT THAT I'M NOT GRATEFUL FOR THE SUPPORT.) But this has got to be a legitimate question. I have no idea why I have not been posting to this account, since I do draw. I do draw quite a bit actually. (At least one full picture every other day.) I just don't color everything to best that it can be that often and so I very rarely post for that reason.

I would apologize, but there's really no point in it. Just wish I could get myself to just post whatever I have.

If anyone wants a link to an alternate gallery, feel free to note me or ask here and I'll link you to my tumblr or what-have-you. (although I still only post art to those like twice a month. U_U I'm sorry internets. I draw, just lazy to post.)

I've been drawing a lot of Art Noveau and DMC Reboot's Dante, so who knows. There might be a post of either/or/both?

Happy New Year! Thanks to all the new followers. I've actually been kinda amazed that I'm still getting followers on this account with how rarely I update. I'm much more active on tumblr and my nabyn accounts, but I still don't really upload art that often. (Not because I don't draw!) I just have very little time to keep track of where I post my art work right now and I don't want to ignore all the nice comments I get from all you sweet people, so I don't update unless I think I'll have time to respond!

Thank you so much for taking the time to check in on my artwork and thank you if you're reading this journal! I appreciate your interest --->

I recently! Got my new surface piercings for my birthday! They are cufflinks and they are the cutest things in the world. One unfortunately got infected, so I've been fighting the infection off and I'm healing well! Just hoping I won't slam it into any counters any time soon. (The reason it got infected in the first place, actually!)

For Christmas I got lots of great stuff (not to brag!) which I'm really grateful for, two of the best things were a subscription to Rosetta Stone and a couple of sketchbooks! I made it one of my resolutions to not let this sketchbook die... And so far I've been filling it up at a good pace.

If no one reads this, that's totes okay! I understand, I don't read journals either most of the time. XD

Otherwise, feel free to hit me up with a question or let me know how your holidays were!

-Z

Tagged by, =MuteGator

Rules:
- For every question provide three of what/who inspires you most from that category. More if you prefer. (:
- Tag 5 people
- Have fun!

Questions:
Artist / Band: Mumford & Sons, DEV, Nicki Minaj, G-Dragon & 2ne1
Books: Dante's Divine Comedy, Strange Angels, The Hungry City Chronicles, The Skinny Executioner & Mortal Instruments. (HARRY POTTER DUH)
Movies: Pan's Labyrinth, Aliens (all of them), Pandorum, REC, and Cloverfield (oh.. Forgot about Law Abiding Citizen)
Show Series: Grimm, The Walking Dead, Regular Show & Adventure Time.
Comics: Planets, The Walking Dead, Runaways, Double Mints and Doubt (picky about my comics)
Video Games: RAGE, Lost Planet (both), Prince of Persia, DMC, and Singularity
Subjects: Mutants, monsters, zombies, apocalypse, thrillers, murder mystery, other worlds.
Artists off dA: Nakamura Asumiko (and most typography artists. HOW DO YOU DO WHAT YOU DO)
Artists on dA:   *vert-is-ninja =elsevilla `Endling




I tag:     no one. go for it if you want to.

When did I start being here for 2 years already? And I've done like... Nothing with my art. I'll start posting like crazy soon you guys. Just to get myself doing art like I should be.

I feel like when I post a journal; nearly every time I'm apologizing for not posting, so I'll refrain from doing so now. I think it's more than obvious that I'm not the type to post constantly and that's just the way things work. I post when I can and if I can. Firstly, thank you all so much for all of the comments on my latest artwork, favorites as always and thank you so very much for the new batch of watchers. I'll thank you all individually when I get an opportunity.

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Character Theft

I am a character designer and I get hired to design characters on a regular basis or I trade designs with friends to get some new characters. Basically, this entire summer, I've been dealing with people stealing designs I've either made for others or for myself or had made for me. People see the character, favorite it and make either a direct copy or mash up my designs after bookmarking them/faving them or what have you. You might say "You just inspired them, that isn't considered theft!" But I disagree when someone blatantly favorites my artwork, makes their character and then /deletes/ my work from their favorites so their designs can't be traced back to mine. Mostly, I can deal with this and I have very protective friends that help me deal with such thefts, but that is one of the major issues I've been dealing with all summer.

Friend Moving

One of my best friends for the past five years who is near and dear to me is moving across the country to live with me. Mostly I've been talking to her constantly, clearing up any final plans and organizing ideas with my family about how this situation is going to work. It's extremely exciting and I'm having difficulty focusing on much else. I'm either talking about this happening, talking to her or thinking about what we're going to do together once she gets here. She just purchased her flight tickets and so it is official, she'll be here in no less than 12 days and I'm just... Thrilled!

Commissions

I've been doing a lot of commission art work to try and raise money, but since it takes a lot of time, I've hardly been able to draw for myself. Especially any completed images. Mostly it's been a few doodles here and there, except for the past two weeks.

Gaming

For the past two weeks I have been playing nothing but Gears of War 3 and Bioshock 2. rofl. It's pretty much all I've had focus for aside from my friend moving in and me looking for work. That's basically all that I've been up to and I hope to be posting some art soon when I get to focusing.

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I'll be trying a story boarding challenge this month, I think. Alongside my commissions and hopefully after my friend settles in, I'll be able to focus more. I'll respond to everyone as soon as possible and I thank you all for having patience with me.

-Z

Edit:: THANK YOU to everyone for your well wishes in my recovery. I didn't end up going to the hospital, simply because I have no way of getting there. Though my hand is still really tender, I can at least type without issue and at least hold a pen now. I am not completely sure as to what happened to me, all I know it that my hand could not rotate nor move without locking up and sending pain throughout my arm and hand. My sister ended up popping some bones back into place or something when she was massaging my hand and now I can grip things and rotate my hand without too much issue. I can't type too much or hold a pen for too long as it's still sore, but yes, I am well enough to actually draw. It's a huge relief to me and I'm so grateful to everyone for your well wishes.

If my hand isn't better completely by next week, I'll just have to figure out a way to see a doctor about it.
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I fucked up my hand royally. My drawing hand to the point that I cannot hold a pen without agonizing pain. I'm typing one handed and am constantly medicated, but I won't get the chance to go to the hospital until Wednesday if it is still fucked up. I'm really upset right now that I might not be able to draw anymore and so... I dunno, no promises about art in the future. I'll update or make a new journal on Wednesday... Until then, I'll be practicing gaining fluidity and dexterity in my other hand.

[posting this same message everywhere, so I'm sorry to anyone who follows me other places]

Like. Not even just a little bad... Kinda, sorta, HORRENDOUSLY bad at it.

I don't even know why, but every single time I try to use this site or mangabullet to post without worry, I always make myself feel more pressured. I've got absolutely not idea what to do with myself or what's good enough not to disappoint people. I have so much art finished and just kind of sitting in my files, but I don't feel right posting it in the least.

OTL;; I'm so sorry to anyone paying attention to me, I don't know why I'm like this. Sorry sorry.

I actually have been drawing a shit ton and posting it all over my tumblr. It's just really difficult to convince myself to actually post it into my gallery. I always get this gallery syndrome on my dA's that I've had in the past and now I'm trying to actually get myself to post. Aside from commissions... I have my advertisement work done and I really wanna post that, but since I can't just yet, I'm getting all sorts of sulky and stuff. Soon though, so much art to post, so much art. I could probably do a pchat dump at the very least. ;-;

-Z

To my new followers. I normally go to everyone's page and thank them personally just out of habit, but I'm a bit overwhelmed with other things right now to put further obligations on myself. Thank you very much for your support, though. I always appreciate it and I hope not to disappoint in the future.

Summer should bring;

-A webcomic. [no promises on it being interesting or anything.]
-Advertisement images [web commissions]
-Other commissions.

Yep... Sorry to appear distant or anything; no one seems particularly interested in striking up conversation and with the few that do; I take ages to respond because of exams. Sorry sorry sorry. I feel really bad about those sort of things.

-Z

So um. Am I the only person that dA doesn't work anymore when it comes to viewing art. Also new  journal fill layout is making me cringe big time. I guess I'll just have to learn to live with that, but I need dA to start letting me view art again. :[ Hopefully it fixes itself soon.

Also, finally been here on dA for a year and I um, yay. Expect a thank you picture for all of your support guys. Appreciate it.

[Got the new P!atD CD which I'm currently swooning about. Yay, steam punk and plague doctors. Also I've been fan-fagging over MSPA since I recently started reading it. Already doodled John and made a fantroll, lol orz|||| Probably will upload some fanart for them. AND I'M GETTING MY POKEMON BLACK AT THE END OF THE MONTH. FUCKYEASEAKING.]

-Z

What's happened in the past month; got hired on to do some header/footer images for a website. Hung out with friends. Read up to the 5th HP again (been HP fagging like a bitch cuz I remembered how much I loved the series.) Been playing Dead Space 2 like a boss. Been studying (not like a boss.) And now I'm trying to read I am Number Four before we go see the movie with my mates.

Anyone looking forward to I am Number Four and Sucker Punch?

Oh and have a happy/cute day guys. Even if you're not in a relationship with anyone, there's no reason to not catch the fluff floating around the internet. Hell, read some smut. Today's the day for it.

-Z

I got no friends onliiiiiine, be excited for me dA.

For what reason? The world may never know.

(Has anyone read The Thin Executioner by Darren Shan. I might wanna fanart Jebel Rum... like...desperately.)

Sorry to be so quiet within this community. I've been trying to keep up with my own business irl and the hectic holidays kept me away. Now. I've got quite a bit of art to post. For sure; a sketch dump, a commission dump and a chibi dump will be posted within the next week or so. Then more expensive comissions will be posted. Thank you for any watches I've recieved in the past month or so and thank you for any support you may have given me. Hopefully I can become a bit more attached to this community again. Right now, Tumblr is my home.

-Z

Nothing to report. My birthday is the 21st. I'll be 20 this year. Lame.

Been drawing kinda a lot, but all of it is on my Tumblr. Nothing worth posting here.

-z

Thank you to everyone that sent in their sweet wishes for my cat to get better. I truly appreciated the sentiment and she is much better now, back home and laying on the bed behind me. Maybe I'll upload pictures of my meow meow one day.

Regardless of that good news, I do have to say that there won't probably be any major art updates for the next two weeks aside from maybe one or two pictures because of my laptop's AC adapter cable being unable to register electricity through it's circuits. We have purchased a replacement already and are simply waiting for it to arrive.

In the mean time; I will be participating in NaNoWriMo. So good luck to the fellow NaNo's out there. I'm really excited because this is my first year of participating and I certainly hope to be able to accomplish the challenge. Please have a bit of patience with me and pardon the delays. (Also, so very close to beating a few video games and finishing a book by one of my favorite authors. Good news after a few terrifying events.)

Thank you again and I love you guys.
-Z

or something. She really needs all the help she can get and it hurts to hear how badly she's doing in the hospital. And if there isn't a dramatic turn around now or tomorrow. She's going to die. Please. Someone. Pray for her or hope for her or whatever it is you want to do. I want my cat to be okay.

;-; I keep trying and trying to be sociable here on this site, but it's difficult. During the summer people seemed to be everywhere and now everyone seems to have fallen off the face to the earth.

orz

-keeps trying-

I think it's safe to say that I was off sulking somewhere. But that moment has passed now and yet again I try to familiar myself with dA's community. It's really hard to like this place all the time, but at the same time... I don't think I'm going to be abandoning this any time soon. I just have to find a particular reason to post just here, so I'm not spamming both of my websites. 'v' Tumblr is my safe haven as of right now, I just post anything and everything, so that's why I may be a bit quiet here.. Still love quite a few people, just wish I had reason to talk to you guys more.

-Z

I don't know how many times, my friends have referenced other pictures (eyeballing them) and gotten their pictures taken down because they look similar. It wasn't traced... Just very well referenced. I'm not going to say whether referencing like that is right or wrong, it's neither here nor there. Just knowing that someone put so much hard work into a picture, I've watched most of them literally being drawn before my very eyes...... And having their pictures lumped up as traced art and removed is really upsetting to me.

That's why I don't use references on anything. That's why my sense of anatomy is distorted, why things hardly look real and things look the way they do. Don't offer me any references and kindly don't ask me to make tutorials. Thank you.

-Z

So. I'm waiting for the announcements at :userhalloweenacademy: and I'm not particularly sure when they'll be announcing the decisions on which students they choose, but I'm fairly nervous. Just thought I'd spam this journal with all that's been going down recently.

-My subscription here on dA pooted out. No more fancy journal. Drat.
-Been trucking along with school work and I'm FINALLY making progress. (yay)
-Been making a lot of new friends. (Also yay.)
-Been losing a few old friends. (Also drat.)
-Been getting a lot of new watchers. Thank you <3 I appreciate the support ;v;
-Hit 80k hits elsewhere. (Drawing the kiriban...slowly)
-Been watching a lot of movies and gaming on my DS.
-Massive sketch file on this computer (I shit you not it's like 40k by 40k pixels)
-Trying to get a job. (Making little progress.)
-Have another interview at AI. (Art Institute. They say a lot has changed so it might be easier for me to get in.)
-MIGHT BE GETTING A CAR (I'm shitting brix dude.)

And yep. That's all I can think of for major updates. Once I figure out coding on these damn things without needing a sub, I'll throw links to my other websites back up here.

Z